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I'm sad today. No major reason. Little things.

Got a thanks but no thanks email back from a person to whose personal ad I replied. Pure, unadulterated rejection. I suppose it was polite to let me know my message had been received and read, but this is a little harder to take than never hearing anything.

My job is annoying me. I've been doing the job of a higher ranked associate for years. Now with recent restructuring of my department we actually have someone on our team to fill the positions I've been unofficially handling. So, no promotion, but that's okay. I was kind of looking forward to being able to relax a little, have a little less of the responsibility weighing on my shoulders. But no, everyone still comes to me with every freaking little question. I can't even get any of my own work done today... and I'm still not getting the paycheck of a Senior Rep.

Belt test in two days. I shouldn't be freaking out about this, but I am, so my stomach's even more knotted.

I'm tired. I want vacation. Just gotta hang in there another week.
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I have two new rules in my dating life: I will no longer waste time pursuing gay men or straight women. Or anyone who is otherwise unavailable. I guess that's three rules.

That leaves me pretty much in the same place I started, wondering where to start.

I've decided to say screw you to the world that tells me I have to choose between men and women. No. I have to choose someone who I can love and who can love me. Gender is irrelevant. So now, I'm venturing back toward the world of women who date men and men who date women and wondering what I've been missing for all these years. The cynic in me suggests "Not a hell of a lot," but there's still that hopeful little girl in me who wants to believe that there's someone out there for me. Maybe it's a boy, maybe it's a girl, maybe I can keep the Instant Gratification Demon quiet long enough to find out.


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